Ever since the Bali bombings I have been thinking about funerals. I went to school with some of the unfortunate souls who never made it home - 1 still has not been properly identified - and it really bought home the fact that we are not immortal.
Now my question is this - how do I tell my family what I would like for my funeral if, heaven forbid, I should die young? My father is a worrier and I know even mentioning such things will put his mind in a dark sad place, wondering what I'm not telling them.
There's nothing huge in what I want; just songs I want played, which Church I want the service in, where I'd like to be buried, that sort of thing. The biggest one for me is that I do not want flowers. I want helium balloons. Round balloons in bright solid colours. Where the grown-ups can release them when they lower my coffin (sort of symbolically releasing my spirit), and the younger ones can play with them at the wake (which would just tickle me no end). Yes, I know it's an odd thing to want, but I'm not a big flower person. Especially at funerals and such. For me it's a waste of money, and it's just one more thing that dies.
I have thought about telling my brother what I'd like, but I can never work out how to bring it up in polite conversation. And it is admittedly a strange thing to want to discuss when you're under the age of 30. It's not that I have a death-wish or anything, but if something were to happen to me I would like to leave this mortal coil knowing that it was all sorted and there was no less thing to burden my loved ones with.
Would it be incredibly morbid of me to tell them this stuff? Or should I perhaps write it all down, and put it somewhere that I know someone would find it if something happened to me? Or am I just worrying about something I shouldn't worry about?