The guy isn't real, doesn't even really have a face or a voice, but I can't kill him off. I just can't. I want to, but when I go to write the words I break down. I'm crying all over the place about a character that doesn't exist, and most likely no one else will give a toss about. His story-line is the main plot in the fic, but christ it's hard to make him dead.
Anyone else out there killed off a character in a fic? And if you have, can you please tell me how you coped. This death was supposed to emotionally scar the other guys in the fic. Not me.
I need chocolate. Or alcohol.
For the record, this is the last time I ever kill someone. It's too frigging hard.